Friday, September 3, 2010

Where did I go!! My journey

This is where this part of the journey begins. First marathon. Las Vegas. I am just a few weeks  prego with Ella I dont know it yet though. Kami and I train hard and it pays off. We run a great strong marathon. Here is where I have my first run in with THE WALL. I discover its real and It slows me way down. Kami and I actually do it we complete our first marathon. As I run down the finall stretch it feals unreal, I am actually doing. I am so grateful to Kami for asking me to do this with her. I probably never would of thought to do it on my own. Its addicting real addicting, when is the next marathon?
Yes that me, Wow I look different crazy different. This is the Sedona feb. 2008.  A little over 5 months after I give birth to my beautiful baby girl. I came back to soon. I feel like I am ready , but I pushed hard. I dont know my actual time on this marathon, I dont want to know. It was hard running up and down to many hills, rocky road sore feet, Exhaustion it was hard way hard. This was a finisher marathon, I finished. One day I will go back and run this strong. I will want to know my time and I will be prepared for all that comes with this one. But I am not ready yet.
This is my first half marathon it came after 2nd marathon and befor e third. This is where I learn a most valuable lesson about fuel. I learn our body needs fuel. When you run out of gas your out. I learn when you drop your hammerhead gel that you need to run back a few steps pick it up. I learn to be prepared and not count on others to make sure I have my fuel. I learn a half can be hard. I started with the whole deal but this one challenged me for sure.
This is ogden marathon, This is a great marathon, it is amazing. It is here I learn how my life is exhausting at times, I learn sometimes I am not in charge. As I suffer from my  6th period in 2 months, no matter how much I prepare things come up and you make the best of it. It is here that I learn I can run it by myself. Halfway thru we seperate and I reach inside and do it. I battle back in forth in my head, sing a few of my favorite songs outloud and shed alot of tears. I run a great race shave about a half hour off of Vegas and I am stronger.
It is here that I have to take a picture in Texas of the lazy cows in the pasture behind me. Because I am a Rhino, I wake up and charge each day. My hysterectomy sets me back. I go from marathon shape, runnin 6-8 miles 5 days a week. To six week down. Mentally it kills me, I want to run, I want to feel strong, why me!!! I battle and even when the time comes the strength does not. Three miles kills it hard, its slow, But I remind myself I am a rhino and I keep on chargin. Through time and listening to my body, even when I did not want to I come back, Come back stronger than ever.
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I wish you could see this crazy pictures, This is me and Amy out running hills, 10 miles of crazy hills at 5 in the morning. I love it, I love running, its taught me alot. Some of the best friends you will ever have are your running buddies. Some times you feel closer to them than your spouse. Long runs teach you alot about each other. I am so luck to have Kami who got me started, who inspired me to run a marathon. She is strong and steady, reliable. I am grateful for Niki who helped me through Sedona. She is such a great example and endurance that never ends. My mom it was nothing intense like marathon training. But it was daily, it was fabulous, It was my mornings for a long time. It was running all but maybe two days a year, it taught me alot about dedication. My running buddy Amy she makes me laugh, she works so hard, hardly ever complains and has improved so much. 5 kids and she is out there almost every day running her little heart out. She teaches me how much hard work pays off. I look forward to my other running buddies to come, you know who you are you can do it, we look forward to you joining us. I am happy, it makes me happy I never have to multitask or get inturupted.  Marathons taught me how to dig deeper when you feel like you cant go on any further you probably can, you just have to believe in yourself. If its hard and you struggle to run 5 miles, run 10 a few times, that 5 feels like a breeze. Most of all it teaches me to believe in myself. Life is tough, really tough, take it a mile at a time.

2 comments:

emlizalmo said...

What a journey it has been! You are awesome Tara. I am so grateful for you and the help and support you give me. I hope this running relationship of ours will keep going for a long time. I am going to keep coming back to this, reading it over and over again. VERY inspiring! <3

Michelle said...

You ROCK Tara. I'm proud of you, and all that you have accomplished in the last few years. This is a great post!