Still going!

Not much to report, still on track. Kind of moody and exhausted. Waiting for the moment when you cut all the junk out of your life and feel so much better, still waiting.

Cruising through my week!

So the Diet coke headache was slightly delayed by the half I drank on tuesday night. Its been full blown since about 11 yesterday. What is wierd is I am not even struggling with cravings. Just this dumb headache:( I have tried ibuprofen and Tylenol. Maybe its time to bring in the big guns and go get some excedrin migraine. Besides the headache I am feeling really great sticking to my food plan and working out. My foot is slowly feeling better each day. I feel strong today and really good. I just dont understand why 6 weeks ago, when I started feeling my clothes fit differently. You know not in the good way differently. Why I could not just get back on track right then. Its weird how our minds work sometimes. You want something so bad, but you are not willing to make the changes to get it. Me and my mom laugh about this alot, "Why is food so important to us!" We are not talking about the foods that make strong and help you to function daily. We are talking about all the other stuff we like to cram in our faces throughout our day. Dont get me wrong some of it tastes totally worth it. But you know when you eat a candy bar or cookie from a package and you think that wasnt even worth it. Than you are bummed why did I eat. Dont get me wrong I believe in treats and foods that are Yummy! Baking is one of my favorite things. But sometimes I think I just have to cut it out for a while. When I feel my control is low. I am lucky to be almost 5 foot 10 and the 15-20 pounds that bother me are not even noticeable to other. I call them your naked pounds nobody sees them but you can sure feel them. Last night at work one of my awesome cousins came in. He has seriously changed his life around. He has losts 80 pounds and he looks really great. He use to be the guy who would never eat a veggies. He would order a chimichanga, no rice or beans, sub fries, lots of fried chips. Now he comes in and has a healthy salad everytime. He feels great, he has been heavy along time and did not even know how much better he would feel and how much energy he would have. Last night I was standing by the table and he asked his brother for sme of his chicken,smothered in cheese nachos. I looked at him and told him that he did not want that. He looked up and laughed at me. He said I wish I could just have you hang out with me all day and keep me on track. I was thinking its true there are certain people we get around and make healthier choices. But we can be that person to our selves. I can cheer myself on or remind my self of the disappointment you feel after you make a bad choice. Sometimes we feel like no one els is around, so no one else will know. But the most important person is "YOU".  So I am down 5 pounds! Heres wishing everyone a super great day, dont forget to be your own cheerleader!

On a roll:)

So its been going great and feeling great. I got me in some cardio today, YAY. I went to the gym today with my good friend Amy. She is such a great example to me. She had an injury and she wasnt sure if she could run our marathon. She crossed trained like a wonder woman. Sometimes having to do over 3 hours at the gym. I am not very good at the gym and cardio. Its totally a mental thing. I just have a hard time settling into a half hour or hour on a machine. I know it gets easier the more you do it. But I struggle and its not like when I am running and I get 3 miles from home. Even if I want to quit I still have to get back home. At the gym I know my car is just one minute away. We did a half hour on bike and a half hour on the stair mill. Well she did 30 minutes on stairmill. I had to stop like 8 times that is a workout, my lungs were burning and I was sweaty. I know being all sweaty is gross, but it gives me a sense of accomplishment and I feel strong. I have missed that feeling the last few weeks. So besides the bite of sugar cookie bar, I ate in my dream last night(I was so dissappointed in myself) lol just a dream. It was easy yesterday. I had some steamed brocoli, fresh out of Rachels garden tomatoes and grilled chicken. It was delicious with my favorite vinagrette on top, Eating healthy can taste yummy. Sometimes you just have to get a little creative. Feeling good, feeling strong and ready for day 4. Hope everyone else feels awesome and strong today.

Bam day 2 gone.

So day 2 down. I totally did awesome. There was one little bump in the road. I forgot tell my sweet husband I was off the diet coke. So after sitting out at my daughters hot soccer game. We drove home seperately, he came walking in with an ice cold diet coke, AHHH, crushed ice might I add. So whats a girl to do, I had to use my manners. Ok so I drank half. But other than that my day was a complete success. Healthy eating all day and I did my workout. The nice thing is the scale is going down. BUt it always responds quickly, Like we have talked about I know how to do it, its just a matter of keeping it. Lately I have read alot about mixing up your carbs daily. Somedays low, some days mid and some days higher, It tricks your body so it doesnt get used  the same thing. Right now I am sticking high protein low carb. Just because my activity is so low. Its funny I was talking to somebody today about being bummed that I could not run. They said, maybe its your bodies way of telling you need to slow down, I hear this alot. I thought to myself, why cant my body just send me tickets to some place warm, with a nice sandy beach. I would sit around and relax lots with no pain:) Well heres to a good day. Foots starting to feel really good, Yay.

Here we go!

So day one down, but dont you worry I am really good at day 1-3 its the days that follow that are hard for me. I feel great. I was not very hungry yesterday. So that made it really easy. I had my appointment to check on my foot. It is plantar fasciitis and a bone spur in my heel, the xray proved it. So they gave me a shot in my heel of steroid, first they numbed it why does that part hurt so much. They used and ultrasound machine to see exactly where they need to go. It was pretty painful, good thing I am so tough. I got myself some fancy new heel gel pads and I am restricted for flip flops:( Then I need to wear what they call a straussburg sock when I sleep. It sound like I will be back running within the next 10 days woo hoo!! Cant wait, ok can wait, till it feels better. So I decided to look at it in a positive way. Since I cannot run for a bit I need to focus on my nutrition. Its a good time because I am not burning many calories, So I know I need to focus. I am working on cutting out the crap food and feeling it with good stuff, fuel for this busy mama. Its good for me, good for my family. Day one no diet coke down, I have the sweet headache to prove it. I woke up 4 pound lighter. Proving that a 44 oz diet coke and 2 chocolate chip cookie(big ones) Is a bad idea at 9 0clock at night. So lets talk goal, you know how you have a goal that you will reach, well that goal is to lose 14 pounds. Then there is the giant goal, You can do this one too, its just harder. That goal is to lose 21 pounds. So we are going to call it X-21(my friends do it this way then everyone does not have to know how much I weigh) I got a  new Tracy anderson toning dvd, I will do this everyday, no impact involved. Lots of water. Thats the plan for now. wish me luck!! Have a great healthy day:)

28 days

So I know no one really reads this. But for some reason it gives me a sense of accountability and a sense of embarassment all in one. So they say it takes 28 days to break a habit, oh wait maybe its 21 days. Well I know a treatment to give up bad dangerous behaviors is 28 days. Plus its a really good movie. I love sandra bullock! Well I go through my Yo-yo phases all the time and I commit to crazy things, like giving up diet coke and sugar. It lasts a few days, I start to feel really great and then I am so over it. Then a month later I am on here telling you my next big plan or commiting to really change or just better health. I stand before you a desperate woman. As many of you know I am a runner. Some might say I run to eat, some might say I run to stop my self from going crazy. There are things about running that you just dont understand unless your a runner. First off its great cardio, when you do this daily for an hour or more you are burning 600+ calories. That leaves some room for some yummy treats. Second of all it is part therapy. It is good for the soul. Well the time you do not want to be a runner is when a injury is involved. Leaves your pants feeling tight and your spirit feeling down. I have not had an injury that has left me unable to run in about 6 years. RIght now I am suffering from plantar fasciitis in my heal. It is no fun and I am left feeling like I have to figure out everything differently than I like. I am not going to sit and complain. Instead I am doing some research and setting some goals for the next 28 days, hoping I can make some new healthy habits and I will just say it some change.  I read a quote I love, I am going to "ACT AS IF IT WERE IMPOSSIBLE TO FAIL" Well I have some work to do goals to write down, I will check in tommorow with all the fun stuff. Have a good night.

Today I woke up at 430 to meet Niki at the gym for a workout with weights. It was a great workout, I was sitting here waiting to head out on my run. Just thinking and reading through my older post. Tearing up a little. Its funny how this weight and fitness thing goes. I admit regularly, I am a bad eater. Or maybe I say a great eater, I eat too well, too much and too much junk food. I am not complaining I am strong and pretty fit. But there is that 20 pounds I want to lose, I lose and gain 10-15 back and forth through my journey. I spend alot of time thinking about it. I love health and fitness magazines. I read them alot. I am always looking for the magic article the one that is going to change my life, make it easier. So I just ran my 5th marathon at the begining of june. It was awesome. For some reason my body adjust to running 50+ miles a week and now that I am not running that much. It goes into storage mode and the jeans start to feel tighter and tighter. I in return start to eat more and more, stress about it and have a treat, have a soda. Its just this silly cycle I do. I read more,  I focus on it more,stress more eat more treats. So the trick is pulling myself out of the cycle. The magic trick is no trick at all, its hard work, its dedication, its being prepared and being honest with yourself. I am really good at the hard work and working out. Its the healthy eating I struggle so much with. I am an emotional eater and sometimes it gets the best of me. Last night as I watch an amazing transformation a show on TV. It was a lady who weighed 435 pounds. She struggled so much with her eating habits. As I sat there and watched her, I thought come on lady pull it together. Here she has this amazing experience all the help she needs and she is blowing it. Than I sat back and thought about how we all do this. We all have an experience to reach our goals, overcome our obstacles and nothing is easy about it, AT ALL!! Sometimes I think the hardest part is being honest with yourself, really dealing with some of your issues, that you hide behind. I struggle because for alot of years I had alot of depression and I was sad with my life and food made me happy. Along the way I picked up alot of bad habits and I passed on some bad eating habits to my older kids. I have alot of guilt over that and sometimes I just dont get why change is so hard and why we keep beating ourselves up over the same things. Today I focus on positive change, long term change. Not the kind you do for 3 0r 4 weeks and go back to your same issues. I focus on being a good example to my family and practicing what I preach:) Wish me luck!